Guess who is a year older o____o


MEEEE

Happy Birthday me XD

I'll post pictures!

We had birthday week, so there were a lot of things that went on this week.

Dinner last Friday at Sushiyama
Dave & Busters on Monday
Karaoke on Tuesday Night
Dinner on this Friday @ Genroku & Birthday cake! YAY!
Then Six flags today!

Tomorrow we get free ice cream and I'm not sure what else I'm doing o_o we'll see.

XD Fun fun fun.

I had the scariest dream, it was this morning, I had woken up way late for class >< STUPID and so I just went back to sleep XD Since I didn't have another class until 2:30...


Well... anyway I had a scary scary dream. It was a full color dream, and very detailed.

I was near Dallas, in a shop, Kristy was there with me. I know we could see big buildings, so we weren't very far from Dallas, but not actually in it. Then suddenly we heard this boom and then like air... like sucking, it's hard to explain. And people started screaming, and I remember seeing this cloud wall and debri coming towards us. I ducked behind one of the shelf thingys and people were screaming, it was seconds when all the glass shattered and things were flying, people were screaming and crying, and a few seconds later it was over and there was this low smoke... stuff and someone else was there saying it was an neuclear bomb and it hit south of us and I guess we were lucky we were far enough away that it didn't kill us upon impact, but we still felt some of the wrath of it. People were crying, and I went to use my cell phone to call people to make sure they were all okay but there was no cell phone connection. Everything around us was destroyed. I was thinking it was a nuclear attack then breathing the air and being in the area was a bad idea. I remember taking one of the tshirts and using it to wrap around my face. The buildings in the distance were gone and there was debri everywhere.

We began walking away from the debri, There were some dead bodies around as well, some of them were completely burned up, their faces not even recognizable anymore. After walking for a while, we were offered a ride by someone who was able to drive away, most of the cars were completely destroyed so I'm not sure how they got to use their car... but anyway we got north enough close to my house and things were destroyed but not near the destruction we saw where we were. Some windows were broken, and stuff though. We got inside and my family was listening to a radio and they said something about several attacks on America. I think they said it was North Korea, but I don't know, I think that was a theory on the radio, but I'm not sure.

I remember panicking though because I was scared, I was scared about what was going to happen to America and also scared because I was worried about the radiation on MY body. I was scared what would happen to us. I've read books >< and I know radiation will kill you, and I was closer than a lot of people. I don't remember much else then that. I know we left Dallas and went to Mississippi but I don't know.

LOL it was just a scary dream, seeing all the things that happened, all the destruction and dead bodies and thinking I would be dying too and there wasn't anything that I could do to stop that, it was a helpless feeling.


Anyway o_o I gotta go get ready for class... later

I have, at last, finished the second season of the Tudors.

I have to say finishing off the Second Season, I'm really sad, and I'm feeling a lot of hate towards Henry. I have read countless books and watched movies and television shows about the Tudor Family and this is the FIRST series where I felt so sorry for both Catherine as well as Anne. I cried for Anne at the end, it was so sad... AUGH STUPID HENRY... I was also angry with Mary for taking out her anger at Elizabeth, I know Mary was pleased that she would no longer be Bastard, but to wish that upon little Elizabeth is wrong too, isn't it? Especially when Elizabeth did nothing to Mary, it was Anne she hated, not Elizabeth.

I think they really captured the essence of human nature in the show, their fascination with death, their hatred towards each other, and the ever changing favors between people and even between kingdoms. It's ridiculous, and true.

I can't wait for the third season, although I've heard that Lady Jane Seymour will be played by someone else because the actress they had in the second season did not want to do a nude scene, or something of that nature.



Anyway, for those of you who haven't seen The Tudors, I highly recommend it! It's a really well made series!

Now, I'm off to bed. Good night.

AUGH people make me SO mad.

I hate days like this, today just sucked, and to top it all off, I don't feel good either, so, it's all just sucking today.


Well this morning, was easy enough to get up, because I couldn't sleep soundly at all past 9 am, which made me so mad, because I was sleepy, I just couldn't sleep. HATE that. So I finally dragged myself out of bed, and then got ready for work.

My manager was in a super bad mood, he got mad at me cause I keep requesting days off, well, I'm SORRY. I haven't requested a day off this whole entire summer, you can FREAKING SUCK IT UP. Then we had a ton of returns, and he just takes his effing anger out on me, well, I don't need this crap, I was seriously about to be like SCREW THIS, I'M OUT. So, tomorrow, yes, I am filling out applications. I will not be a polo slave any longer.... I won't leave until I get my 50 dollars giftcard though damnit. ><

Then, today is the last day before my Mom gets back from Colorado, the day I can stay out super late without anyone saying anything or making a smart comment to me or anything, my last day of FREEDOM, and so I call EVERYONE. Even Heather.. Heather has no MONEY, because she went to california with her BOYfriend, besides she already saw the black knight, Anne didn't help at all, I'm still mad at her for not calling me about fireworks on the 3rd of July, when the week before she was like "yeah! I'll call you if we end up going! I don't know if I'm going!" and then there's pictures up on her facebook and saying about how much fun she had, well that's great Anne, guess what I did? I sat at home, aw, how fun. So I called her anyway, and she doesn't want to go because she already saw the movie too, and she's like "well everyone went to see it on premire night!" and I'm like well... awesome, no one told me we were all going to see it on premire night. Apparently no one tells me anything anymore. Only I didn't say that, but damnit I was thinking it. So I def got into one of my moods, you know how I do..

So, I stomped around the house, talking to no one in particular like a crazy person.

Then I sang really loudly to let out frustration but that only made my head hurt, so now I'm sitting here trying to download Prince Caspian, because no one would see that movie with me either.


I'm about to freaking give up on my friends down here, I'm ALWAYS the one trying to put things together and trying to get people together, but everyone always does things on days they KNOW I work, and lately they haven't called me at all, and they're all like "aw I miss you, you're always working!" and I'm seriously one day going to snap back "I'm off every fucking tuesday and thursday." And I don't even work till late, it's not like they can't do something AFTER FIVE. SERIOUSLY.

ARUGHAETOAUEGTAPEG

So I'm just going to complain about this trivial thing right now. I'm just sick of living here. SERIOUSLY, The happy!pro girls are like the only girls that I can hang around anymore, because all my other friends decided to be fuckers lately.

And I really miss my friends in Ohio too... Y_Y I REALLY NEED SOME GOOD SHOPPING THERAPY! Someone please come save me >< ARG.


Anyway u_u... that's all, I just needed to complain for sure... cause I'm just getting so fed up with people hah....

Well, things haven't stopped in my house. The other night, I was practicing dance rehearsal, out of nowhere I felt this overwhelming feeling of... like lonliness but anger for being like left behind. It really like.. took me over emotionally, I had to sit down and like think things through... I don't think those were my emotions. That was the first time I think I've ever FELT something that someone else felt, like As if *I* was feeling it myself. Sometimes though, I can still catch the emotion or feelings of others without talking to them, well with living people anyway. It actually gets kind of useful at work XD but at the same time, I can get really annoyed at people in the store without really talking about them... which is just weird. I've been trying to figure out what it is, cause I just have always figured I'm like super sensitive to spirits or whatever since this is the 2nd house that something like this has happened. Kristy who is more familar with this stuff than I am kept saying she thinks I'm clairvoyant. I watched a show, and there was a thing they called Clairvoyant Empath. Which means like... you can catch emotions of spirits but also of the living too. So that was like O_O woah to me. I'm like so that's what I can do. I don't though, because it's happened more often recently.

In middle school though, thinking back, there were times when I could like grasp emotions from people, or in one case that is still vivid in my mind, I was leaving a classroom over at Heritage Middle School and I had like the freaking star wars theme in my mind, this is before I even would consider watching it, I hated all that kind of stuff XD and I was like wtf... I don't even know this stupid theme, and then as I exited, in the classroom next to me, there was one kid like humming it with his friends, and I'm like O___o I don't think I ever actually shared that with anyone... but I don't know, I guess that's kind of similar.

There's just small things like that, they add up together. I don't know if that's why I can like sense whatever it is in the house, and it makes sense. I don't know o_o;; I really don't know what to say. I really don't know who to talk to about this kind of stuff, since my parents don't believe me at all. My Mom does think there MAY be something in this house, but my Dad doesn't believe any of it. But yeah... so, I'll just keep posting about it here.

Anyway, things beside that have been hectic, lots of rehersal, stress, too much work, but I'm also excited for Alyssa and her engagement! A lot is happening and I def haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately, which isn't good XD But I'll survive.

All righty~ Well I'm off! <3

Wow, today has been crazy..

Last night, I was plagued with strange dreams, that may have some meaning behind them. The one I remembered when I woke up, I know there were like 3 or 4 of them, and I woke up several times...but I only really remembered one when I woke. I was looking into this circular room, it was like... half of a globe, kind of, and it has all these beams in it, but there were no windows or doors. There was this demon creature in there, but I wasn't afraid of him, and Heather was in there, but she was afraid. I wanted to comfort her, but I couldn't move, I was like stuck watching, so I'm not sure if I was actually there or not... but she was pregnent O_o; I don't know how I knew that, but I did. And I know the demon creature was getting closer to her, and I wanted to help, but there was no way I could.

o_o;; it's kind of weird XD The sad thing is, I think it might be... symbolic in some ways. I tend to have symbolic dreams, and sometimes prophetic ones too... which I hope this isn't one of them, heh. But she IS in california right now with her BOYfriend, so... I mean what can I do? Call her and tell her to use protection? LOL cause that'd be awkward. "Yeah, I had this dream that you got pregnant and I think your BOYfriend is a demon who is out to get you. So make sure you use protection, kay?" O_o specially since I haven't talked to her in so long.... =sigh= So maybe that's what it means, by I feel like I can't help. I mean... I guess I really could in this situation, but it really doesn't matter if I told her or not, I mean, would that really change her mind about anything? Because she has this mindset that she's invincible and that she's right about this, when she's not.... I on the other hand AM right about this, what she's doing is gross, not to mention illegal... >< augh.. I don't even want to worry about this, give me something good to dream about XD Give me a dream where I'm meeting this hot guy <3 That sounds good XD

Which reminds me about the super cute boy at work today, he goes to Baylor, he's majoring in Financial Advising and Accounting. He graduated the same year as me, in Plano. And his smile was absolutely devine! =D DEF my type. Not only that, he works at POLO o_o that means... he's just like me XDD I talked to him for awhile, lol... I felt like I needed to, after my manager when he was showing him what to do to help out with the childrens clothes, Sam, "broke the ice" by telling the guy that I'm single. LOL wtf. XD that's not breaking the ice.... Oh well XD Well... >_> *shrugs*

I need to get more sleep... 5 hours a night isn't working, but it's like even though right now, I'm exhausted, I can not sleep. I put on music, I count, I try clearing my mind, nothing works... it's not until about 5:30 or 6 am that I'll eventually fall into sleep. I know yesterday I saw the sunrise again, and I'm like... shit this sucks. XD I feel like such a Vampire... These habits NEED to stop... Seriously...

Anyway, I'm not feeling so good~ so I'm going to head off for now.... try to get to sleep before 5.

So, as many of you know, my house is effing messed up, and I swear, that it's haunted.

I think I'm like super sensitive to presences of spirits or something, because I'm always the first to realize it. Since we moved in, I've been scared of the guest room, I always have to have that door shut, or I freak out because I seriously feel like someone is in there watching. Even watching TV in the media room, which is close by the guest room, even if the door is closed, I still get weird feelings towards that room being close to it. I've had dreams of a spirit in that room. And then when one of my friends didn't believe me, that night she got an unwelcomed scare and experiences she couldn't explain.

I think pretty much everyone who has stayed in my house, or been into the guest room can say that there's something weird there, most of my friends have had experiences in my house.

For about 4 months now though, the feeling was gone, I was actually able to go into the guest room without fear and practice in there, I was able to watch TV without getting weird feelings and even if the guest room was opened, I didn't notice it. It was like whatever was in my house had left completely.

Then about 4 or 5 days ago, things started up again, only a little more fierce this time. For 3 nights in a row now, I have been unable to sleep until daybreak.

The first night, it was already about 4 am, but I had the lights off and I had turned off my music because it was distracting me from sleep and then my wooden chest, I had an extra blanket and pillow on there from when I had a sleepover last, and those fell off and the lid to the wooden chest propped open suddenly. I turned around hearing the creak in the dark, and I could see vaugly through the dark that the blanket and pillow were on the ground and the chest was open, and I'm like wtf... and I figured there was something in there that opened it or something... but it's weird because that blanket and pillow have been there for 2 weeks now... so why would it open now? To me, that just seems strange. So I woke up startled and couldn't sleep, turned on music and struggled to sleep, and my mind went to my fears of aliens hah, not ghost...

The Second night was not as bad, but not great. I read until about 5 anyway, so that wasn't good, because I couldn't put the stupid book down, and I had to work the next day so def. not good. So anyway, I force myself to stop on one chapter, I'm checking my facebook one more time, because I'm an addict and there's like a knocking on the wall by my closet... and just for everyones information who has never been to my house, that wall outside my room, there is no way you can knock on it, unless you can fly or you have a long broom or something... because it is a really open house on the inside and... yeah... there's just no way. I brushed it off, but I began connecting the two nights together and I was a little bit scared at this point, and there were some more little noises like footsteps outside, and I literally was laying in my bed, I kept my laptop open for a bit of light, and I saw the breaking of dawn through closed blindes, the light started to pierce through the side of the blindes. Had a rough morning getting up.. I was so tired.

Night 3- Was the worst.. ever. Actually, probably the most activity in one night that I have EVER experienced in one night. Well, I'm watching TV, and there are noises in the guest room, like someone is in there, I leave because I'm freaking myself out, and I go to my room and read instead. There's a scratching at my door, so I'm scared to go to the bathroom now, I eventually do venture out of my room, but I was super cautious because I was so paranoid and I kept feeling like there was something outside of my room. I eventually text kristy because I'm scared, and I keep hearing noises and footsteps and what not. But she finally says shes going to bed at, I think it was 5:30- and we're both watching the dawn and I'm still awake a scared but I turn off the lights and eventually fall into a sleep. At about 6:30 I wake up to a voice. No effing joke. It was a womans voice but it was deeper... kind of a rough voice, not gentle at all, but she said "no, she wouldn't." OR something along those lines. I opened my eyes wondering wtf is going on and who the hell is in my room at this time, and it came from where the chest is, and I sit up and I look around and I'm so sleepy and I'm like what the fucking hell, let me SLEEP. And I'm getting annoyed and grouchy and I remember whispering something along the lines of "wtf do you want, leave me alone" and I lay back down and fall into sleep again.

When I woke up and rethought what happened, it kind of scares me. I've been under the impression that a boy was in the house, a younger man, but this was def a woman, and wtf was she talking about, and who the hell is she and what happened to the boy and why was she in my room, and why can't they let me sleep well for one night.

I feel so exhausted, and I'm scared of my effing mind anytime night rolls around, so much that even though I'm exhausted, I can't sleep... and it's starting to drive me over the edge, today, I was so grouchy and my temper is short... I just don't know what it is. Kristy thinks I'm some kind of clairvoiant? IS that right? I can't read the text anymore... stupid phone. XD I don't know if I spelled that right, or what it really is actually, I should look it up. But yeah, I don't know, I think it's just my stupid house. This house has always given me the creeps, more so than my old house.

I don't think this is the only house with these problems though, just on the corner, the people who live in that house, no one stays over 2 or 3 months, it's always on sale... ALWAYS. It's just weird...

I don't know, I just hate that I have no other proof than my own word... I told Misa and Kristy about it, so we may try to do something o_o communicate with it or something, it's just super strange... and I want to know what it wants, so I can sleep... and it can stay in the guest room, but dude my room o_o is my room... that's a no spirit zone... unless it's my spirit XD

Hah... I'll try to take this in good humor, but it's really starting to freak me out a bit :\ I don't know what to do about it.

All right, so this is my report! You can skip ahead to the performance part ify ou don't want to hear about my crappy weekend XD

(  Crappy Weekend )

( SATURDAY )

I feel like I'm still recovering from the weekend. I just got my appetite back, but apparently everyone had gotten sick, so there was some kind of a virus going around.

Overall, it was the worst con I had been to. LOL, really, the only reason I enjoyed it, were the happy pro girls and the performance. Even though that was the reason for my exhaustion, I'll take it. It was worth it. And I'd do it again, hell if I have to be that exhausted every weekend of a performance, I'd still do it. Because in my mind, performing is everything, it really fuels me and gets my adrenaline pumping and there's nothing else like it.

I ALSO GOT MY ANATABOSHI SINGLE V in the mail! YAAAAAAAAAAAY! <3

Here's some pictures!

Preview!








( PICTURES FROM THE PERFORMANCE! )

Sooo remember that weird dream that I remember so vividly? Well my friend is borrowing me the next book in the 'A great and terrible beauty" series, called "Rebel Angels", well there's one part that was TOTAL dejavu O_O and like... they're in the forest and they're hiding and there's this smell of DECAY covering the area and this horrible creature was there o_o it was a tracker for circe.

Well anyway-> the whole decaying smelling creature TOTALLY reminded me of the soul sucking creature in my dream o_o;; I was like woah *goes to make livejournal post about it XD*




Anyway...

So next weekend is our performance o_o yup... my costumes only a little more than halfway done. The costumes were HARD to make this time >_< holy crap. Didn't think it'd be so technical but it is o__o;; But I'll finish. I HAVE to finish.


But I'm really excited, we got TWO photoshoots scheduled on Saturday one by Eurobeatking and one by kuragiman. O_O So I'm a bit excited for all of it. And then I have a meeting with the people who run AFEST so o___o depending on how that goes, we may or may not get a show for afest. I'm praying lol.


uwa but so much to do *sighs* I finally have to dance down. I just gotta nail it into my head enough that I can put on a good performance. I've been practicing an hour every night and then yesterday we had a 5 hour practice. I gotta finish putting the cut with the vocals, and we'll be ready! =D

<3 anyway ^^ I'm off I want to keep reading o_o

Oh goodness. Why am I so obsessed with that damn book.


(  JACOB VS. EDWARD XD )

XD goodness. That got a good laugh out of me... maybe I'm too mentally exhausted XDD and anything is funny at this point. That's very possible.

On a side note!

O_O Tomorrow I'm travelling to the wonders of the fashion design district in Dallas! =D Fabrics EVERYWHERE and cheap o__o I love that place. I have a problem... see... I buy fabric >_> but tend to make very little out of it. XDDD I'm like omg this is cute, I could make **** and I could use the rest to make **** but then never do. Yup.... I'm just so darned lazy. Someone slap me.

I also need to find these vocal and dance classes I want to take this summer, because damnit, I'm going to be an idol. I WILL be a singer in Japan o__o if it's the LAST THING I DO. Even if I have to act gangsta and be a enka singer. IT will happen. I'll be... Jera (refrence to Jero-> the new popular african-american-japanese enka singer-> look at youtube silly)

Let's see... what else is there to say. We're working on rehersels and stuff, I've been working on a 2 minute cut of our song. IS ANYONE OUT THERE GOOD AT CUTTING SONGS DOWN?! BECAUSE O___O I NEED ASSISTANCE! AND I'M GETTING FRUSTRATED BECAUSE IT DOESN'T CUT WELL DAMNIT.

*hums to self*

That's all I think... >_> I have too much to do.. I need to make a list.

I keep dreaming of Vampires, haha, most likely because of the twilight movie stuff, Vampire knight and versailles and my discussion of their vampire storyline, and my vampire neighbors. I'm guessing thats why, hah, but it seems like every night any time that I actually remember is dealing with Vampires lately. o_o... not that I don't mind XDDDD

Well! I got a call from a guy that I know, that I met at A-kon last year. Him and his friends started a band... a few of the songs they want to perform have female vocals, so he was like his band was kind of sad cause no one knew any girls who sang in Japanese, but the guy I know was like "I do!" and he called me, and wanted to know if I was up for performing with them, and he said their gig is august 8th, and I'd get free hotel stay and free passes and everything, so pretty much everything would be taken care of. XD I said hell yah! And the song is pretty awesome too-> I'm SUPER excited to perform with them, and it's something totally new, I've never performed with a band before, so it'll be great!! <3 And a great new experience.

I also got invited to go overseas on a missonary trip- but I'm deciding against it. I want to focus on my music career first and formost... and this would take out a year, and I wouldn't get school credits for it either. So it's like... :\ Meh... I'll just wait till I can go over for school atleast.

I burned my self with the hair straigtener this morning. A great way to start the day xD I was tired and grouchy from not getting to sleep until about 5:30... I had work on my paper, and I keep getting distracted. Good news though! I finished it! Yay.

Bad news? I didn't finish my geography, but I'll finish it-> before the end of the year XD which is... next week O__O mofo... this went by TOO fast... it's almost SUMMER?! say WHA?!

O__O;; I can't believe it.

信じらない！

Which reminds me of the lame-ass japanese project we had to make for class XD

http://www.playlist.com/node/32655861

Watch it if you dare... but I'm telling you NOW, it's corny XD And because I just got the final script like an hour before this recording o__o I don't sound as good as I usually do. XD the last part I kept messing up because I'd say her real name instead of Brownsan XD ahaha, so I look like a retard =D

On another side note-> I'm not speaking to Heather anymore. The story is long, but BASICALLY-> I've been mad at her since she came back, and if she gave a damn about our friendship she would've tried to talk to me about it. I made the initive to try to speak to her about it-> and she turned it around on me, so I don't need that crap, and I don't appreciate being lied to by her, I don't appreciate feeling used and supporting her, when she doesn't return the same support... it has to go both ways. And I'm sorry- but I'm not a charity worker... friends support EACH OTHER. And they don't use their friends either. So I'm moved on to better things. It's been strange, especially since we used to hang out ALL THE TIME, but meh, I have better things to do now anyway..

I'm gonna go for now, my next class is about to start! <3 baibai

MY WEIRD DREAM

WARNING: 4 pages long and contains insane-fantasy-like dream O__O no joke.

( DREAM UNDER CUT! )
It’s just crazy because… I feel like I was THERE like I experienced it. I felt SO PARANOID waking up, I felt like cautious when I stepped outside to my car, I even sniffed the air. It’s like it felt like days in my dream and then I wake up and suddenly I have to emerge myself in the real world again, it’s just strange… another weird thing was, when I woke up, I like had a feeling that class was cancled, and low and behold, just now, I’m sitting outside of my classroom waiting for class to start, and the kid comes up to go into the class and I’m getting my stuff together and he’s like “hey! Class is cancled!!!” So I sat here for 2 hours XD Waiting for class to start… and I could’ve left 2 hours ago :\ Mofo XDD But it’s just weird. I was kind of disbelief. Anyway… that’s all O_o I’m sorry for writing 4 pages on it, but I needed to get all these details out before I forget them all.

DUDE last night... was I.N.S.A.N.E.

I've never really been through a tornado before, but now I can say I have. I live in North Texas, it was bound to happen eventually, I guess.

Well... I'm working on my take-home test for school, like a good little girl... my windows were open, cause the breeze was warm, but it turned into like... a wind storm and my blindes were like flying at like a 45 degree angle XD and I'm like thinking... maybe I should close my window, but it was hot in my room, so I didn't want to XD And figured it was just a wind storm (we get them often). Then around 3 I start hearing thunder in the distance, but think nothing of it (for once). After a while, it gets a little worse and it's starting to rain a bit, then the wind picks up again and I hear my mom yelling BLOODY MURDER. She's like "MEEEEELISSSA!!! JULIE!!! MEEEEEEELISSSSAAAAA!" And I'm like "What the bloody hell is going on..." so I go downstairs and my moms like "TORNADO! HURRY!" and I'm like "EFFFFFFFFFFF" and I run and get my blanket and pillow to take downstairs and also my laptop and my phone, so we could watch the weather online while we still had power anyway. So, we rushing getting everything into the bathroom, I throw blankets in there to cover up with, I get the bunny and put him in the basket (he bit me a few times), and we find flashlights and get water. I call Heather because even though I'm mad as hell at her, I still don't want her to die, so I warn her, she was sleeping through it, and she wakes up and goes to wake her family up. I call a few other people and warn them too, like Kristy and Sheridan... We're sitting in the bathroom, and then finally the sirens go off. So we're sitting there, and the power is flickering. Sarah start's FREAKING out. Then the power goes off all together and I loose internet. So now, we're stuck in a dark bathroom, listening to the wind howling and the rain pouring and thunder booming. Ginger kept farting and smelling up the bathroom.... We pray for safety, and I'm freaking out too at this point. There's loud sounds, booming, I can hear things moving outside, things hitting windows...

Then it slows down, and I don't hear anything anymore, the sirens are off, but we wait longer anyway. We call my Dad and he tries to give us what weather he can, he was in chicago. We have just a watch now, and the warning has passed, but we wait a while longer. Heather calls me and tells me it passed too, and so we decide it's safe to go out. The storm is still raging outside, a lot of lightining and thunder, and I take a peek out the front door and I see all this debri but I can't tell what its from. I notice the chairs in the backyard are gone, and the trees are all knocked over. The power is still off, so we all sleep in my Mom's room downstairs, just in case there's another warning. At this point it's about 5:00a and I'm tired as hell along with everyone else, but I'm still paranoid have trouble going to sleep. Finally, as the storm died down, I fell asleep. I had to wake at 7a, to take my mom to work and sister to school, because her car was in the garage... which was not working because we still didn't have power.

Driving around Allen, made me realize how much damage there was and how lucky and fortunate we were not to get hit as hard as some of the other places. All the traffic lights weren't working, but some of them had flown off the thing completely, there were tons of HUGE trees uprooted, lots of branches everywhere, fences were completely gone, tree's fallen into houses, the walgreen's sign is gone (I don't know where it flew to), the gas station on the cover thing, the whole roof is gone, pieces of it scattered around the road, trampolines moved from the backyard to the front yard in one case XD. Many of the houses have piece of roofs missing. We were lucky... and it seems like the tornado missed us, but it was right down the street, so it's eerie at the same time, and I'm so thankful we didn't get anymore damage than what we did. We have roof damage, our fence is standing (which is surprising), all of our lawn furniture (which is hardcore metal stuff) flew into the pool, so it's sitting at the bottem right now :\ And there's a lot of debri from overturned trashcans all over the neighborhood.

Driving around right now is a bit surreal, and strange... apparently the news says our town got hit the hardest out of the entire metroplex, so lucky no one else was hit this hard.

XD I'm proud to say I've lived through my first tornado, and it's almost a wakeup call, we need to be better prepared, we are in/close to tornado alley, so we need to be prepared for this stuff, we need to have flashlights together, first aid, blankets and a battery powered radio (we didn't have one...), it would've helped a LOT if we had all that stuff together before hand, if the tornado was worse and it was that close, we may not have been ready for it... and if my mom hadn't woken and checked the weather when she did, we really wouldn't have been so ready.

So! That was my adventure! <3 YAY XD Now we get to cleanup.

XD I feel silly.

Like too much energy, which is shocking... considering I got up a little over an hour ago. >_>

*eats goldfish* yummmm


So the new momusu concert o___o the all single complete one? It's totally win. The girls sound amazing. And no, it's not on DVD yet XD I got a fan rip of the concert, and it's a GOOD fan rip, and holy shit even Sayu and Koharu sound amazing O___o what happened?! And they literally perform EVERY single, including Resonant Blue! YAY! <3

*thinks*

I really have nothing to update.

Oh!

I'm PROBABLY, hopefully maybe going to Oklahoma this weekend, it just depends how assholey my manager decides to be. He posted the schedule 2 days early... T_T and then he didn't come in 2 days and it's like I didn't even have the chance to tell him that I needed those days off, I left him a long note explaining why I needed them off and how he caught me off guard and how I always give him enough notice and what not- so he better effing give me the days off!! YES O_O

Sooooooo I'm at school right now- in the library... doing nothing related to school... obviously. I SHOULD do my geography homework... or study for my japanese test or the sociology test :\ But meh.... I'll do it later T_T

Texas is super retarded, I have to get my car REGISTERED and INSPECTED and it's like gonna be 100-120 dollars. Fucking A man. Why do they think I have this kind of money?! And where the hell is my tax return?! O___O I need the money!!!!!!!!!!! I want to order some CDs XD... but I do need to pay for this stpid registration and what not... and also begin saving a bit for my semester next year.

XD I'm really ADHD

I wonder if this link will work o__o I guess we'll find out.

Update: Doesn't work XD I'll give you the link instead! It's Kristy and I at Ihop XDD One night like at 1am I'm very O___o ADHD and Kristy is singing Chance XD and it's all over the place.
http://www.playlist.com/node/29135664



*eats more goldfish* XDD I typed golffish XDDD those might not be so good.

OMG I SAW GOLDFISH FLAVORED GOLDFISH AT THE ASIAN MARKET XDDDDDDD I was like O__O giant goldfish! *reads* O_o fish flavored goldfish (I keep typing golffish XD) Yuck

I spend too much money o___o On retarded things... like food... >_> and snacks and candy... and things I don't need. And those damn pizza boys down there smile so sweetly... and I get pizza every day at work. Stupid pizza boys.

I got the proofs back o_______o from our photoshoot, did I already say that in my last entry? Well I did~ XDD I look retarded in half of them! LOLLLL But that's okay, cause everyone has a few retarded looking pics so I guess it evens out XDDD It seems like, I blinked at all the wrong times XD Or moved at the wrong times. I need to work on that o__o and work on opening my eyes more ala Aya Matsuura.

O__O mk... well XD I should go to class now! Bai bai

O_o Today was strange! Work was not strange, it was just entirely boring and blah xD But~ then I get out of work and go to school. I go in for japanese, and I got a 99 on my kanji test WOOO! *parties* And I beat Rafael. LOL. Anyway, so we're doing homework and stuff, and Rafael is like staring at me and he says something to me but I have headphones on, and so I take them off and I'm like 'huh?' and he's like "Are you okay?" And I'm like "o__o? yes?" And then Wendy and Rafael and I are talking about the Japanese trip, I was more listening than talking because I'm probably NOT going to be able to go, because I need to go to ohio for a week, and with a show in September o_o no way I'll have time OR money to go... :\ Anyway- so I try to do my homework and he's saying a few things here and there and I just smile or laugh or say a few words comment, just not to be rude. And after a while, he's like "you seem different..." and I'm like "... I do?" and he's like "yeah, are you sure you're all right? Are you mad at me?" and I'm like "No O_O" and I go back to working and he like puts his head on me and he's like "I'm sorry I didn't text you back..." and I'm like "O__O er... it's okay" and then he like goes back and sniffs me XD and he's like "you smell good... it smells familar" And I'm like XDDD *amusment* But I was like O_o I didn't think I was off... maybe a litle quieter than usual. But this kid is so confusing, and honestly, I don't even know how I feel about him O_o;; like he always seems to pop up in my dreams... o__o it's REALLY weird xD and I kind of like him, in his personality, but it's not like a like that I would want to be with him romantically o_o I don't even know how to describe it. I'm just very confused *shrugs*

After he kept bugging me, I told him about the Heather situation, even though that wasn't really bugging me at the moment anyway.. I wasn't really thinking about that, but I mentioned it to get him off my back. I asked him if I was overreacting and he said "I don't know... I'll think over it and get back to you..." I was wondering if that was an answer like "you are overreacting and I don't want to say that in case you get mad at me" answer... And I kind of think it was xD but that's okay. I'm not a good explainer, and I didn't tell him everything involved anyway, because it goes a while back now, and it's all building up and I'm getting tired of her not owning up to her mistakes or what she does, I'm tired of her immature behavior and the way she acts and the fact that she borrows so much and I never see it again, I'm tired of that kid the ferrett and augh I'm just so done with it all. There's so much drama with this, and it's ridiculous. I honestly thought high school was over, but it keeps coming back somehow.

If I think about it, I feel like of just blah today, maybe because spring break is over, maybe I'm exhausted from working 5 days in a row... so...sick... of... polo and screaming kids and messy people who can't watch after their kids and let the kids knock of my mannaquins and all the nicely folded piles of clothes... Augh... I NEED to get out of this store... I thought about it today... I've worked there 3 years and the new people are getting paid more than me? Hell naw. I'm not doing that. I'm just bidding my time to move over to coach... it opens in may. >_< Better buy all my polo clothes now XD I mean don't get me wrong, I LOVE polo. I wear it ALL the time... I have polo gowns, sheets, towels, belts, pants, like a polo shirt in every color XD It's ridiculous, and I really want one of those polo dresses XD But... O__O I CAN'T WORK FOR PENNIES... not with the money I'm looking to spend soon for Happy!Pro and travel and college and the apartment... >_<

=looong sigh=

MAYBE I have too much on my mind. I fell asleep yesterday at 10 pm ... didn't wake up until 11 am. I should be well rested... but I just feel blah :\

T___T I just want my friggin musical career to work out. I know careers like this don't just HAPPEN like that.. and you have to work for it. It just seems so SLOW O__O It's like XD I'm ready for my freaking arena tour ahaha, bring it on.

We got our photoshoot pictures back. O___O We'll need to do editing, and I need to think of some cool cover idea~ I think I have an idea, but we'll see how it works out!

I need to get my car inspected tomorrow and my car reregistered, which is effing retarded, thats 100$ in the hole, and for an effing sticker. Texas is so retarded...

Y_Y *sighs* Okay, that's all. Until next time~

YES! Happy!Pro weekend wasa the first weekend to go EXACTLY as planned! I mean a little off here and there, but we basically stayed exactly on schedule, which is amazing... all things considered XD

All 1st gen, 2nd gen and 3rd gen were invited to the outing. Our new subunit was recording and getting materials for the performance in June- which I can say nothing about >_> sorry. But, I will say, it shall be amazing, and I'm going to have to get working on my costume asap. o_o

Anyway, so we woke up at 9... well I woke up at like 9:16 XD cause Kristy let me sleep a little longer XDD Even though it didn't feel like it. But, I dragged myself out of bed and got ready, and became cute lol XD Went downtown met the other girls, and explored the wonders of the fashion district in Dallas xD Anyway, I got fabric for another costume beside the Happy!Pro one XD that I don't want to talk about

YAY! I'm so excited!

3 more days o_o and then the whole happy!Pro team for Akon is coming together! <3

It's a vigerous scheudule though o_o gotta be sure not to stay up late Friday.

Friday night- Record Radio Show #1

Saturday

Wake up at 9 am
Meet Girls at 11a
Pick up materials for costuming
Pick up official promotional tshirts
Get a bite to eat
Photoshoot with Rudy at 2p
Final practice 4p
Studio Recording 5p

O_O and that'll go for a few hours.

Reminder to self: Being an energy drink xD

=D It's going to be so much fun, and I've never been more excited about a year!

I think Kristy's prediction will be right, everyone will see, 2008 is HAPPY!PROJECT'S year. We're releasing singles, have nearly all our staff together... it's just coming together T___T

And thinking back on how much Kristy I went through for 2 years trying to get this group to function properly and to find things that would put us above "cosplay" and "immiation" groups, has been a task for sure. Trying to gain the respect of the surrounding area is also hard, especially when there aren't many opportunities to perform. I think things are finally looking up though.

I want to go to Mexico and perform one day. They have HARDCORE wota, like that's the closest to performing in Japan, without actually BEING in japan XD They know the wota-gei dances and everything O_O and.... it's amazing XD I want them to chant and do the wota dances for Happy!Project. Time to pack the bags and go to Mexico City XD ahahaha

Maybe in 2009 O_O We'll look into that.

I haven't updated in FOREVER. >_< Life always seems to keep me busy xD

Well as some of you may or may not know, Happy!Project just had a rapid growth xD We added 4 second generation girls, and 1 third generation girl =D YAY! *waves at them all*

I'm really excited about all the future projects that happy!project will perform now in the future.

Our new subunit-> Berry Cute is 7 members! However, 6 are only recording on the 15th of this month.

Oh yeah, Happy!Project is now recording at a professional recording studio!!! We had a lot of fun at the first recording! Usually, I get atleast a LITTLE nervous about singing in front of people, especially people I don't know xD Especially if I'm not on a stage, but I don't know if I'm just more comfortable with singing in front of others, but more than likely, he just made us so comfortable there, and I was like *sings!* XD It was a LOT of fun, and I can't WAIT to go back again, I've been practicing my parts over and over again, and I pretty much have them down, but I need to check pitches and stuff like that now, and make sure I'm all good on that, especally since I have a big solo line in our brand new single xD Which-> I can't say what it is :P Sorry xD It's a SURPRISE!

Here are some of the pictures from the studio recording! There are a bunch more though on the way!







WOO! <3 Yay1 xD

I'm finally putting in the final orders for the tshirts today. :P I'm going to make sure that we'll get the tshirts by the 15th, because we need them for the photoshoot, and the covershoot of the new berry cute single.

*long sigh*

Class is kicking my butt though. I feel like I can't multitask.. and I KNOW I need to try harder.

Japanese is even hard this semester. The first semester she took the WHOLE sememster just to go through the first chapter. Suddenly, already this semester we've gone through 3 chapters o__o And so many kanji to memorize EVERY DAY. And I know it's supposed to be like that, but with everything else I'm learning, it's hard for me to keep up. My Sociology class isn't hard, but I need to redo one question on the test because apparently I got social and psychological theories mixed up XD Oh well. Atleast he's letting me fix it. Geography is retarded. The class is boring. I'm so sick of it, my teacher is a russian lady with a really thick accent.

Rawr, sorry if there are mistakes, my dad's trying to initiate conversation while I'm doing this. I'm not a good multitasker XDDDDDDDD

I need to sell my sailor moon stuff XD Does anyone wanna buy it off me? I still have manga left too :O and in great condition too! <3

And a ton of japanese manga and other manga. And moon wands and cosplay set from japan and a million and half sailor moon posters O___O I really need to get it out of the way >_< I love the stuff and I spent a lot of my life collecting it xD but I really need to o__o get it out of the way...

Anyway-> I'm going to go for now! Baibai

♥ Melissa ♥

Ah, I haven't been on here in... Forever. XD 2 months?

Sorry about the unannounced hiatus, for anyone who reads or cares XD


I'm still alive!

School starts in a week :O I'm taking:

+Cultral Anthropology
+World Geography
+Japanese 2
+Intro to Sociology

>_< Super... I'm only looking forward to Japanese ahaha. Who would've thought? I'm pondering adding a yoga class though o.O Just for the hell of it.



*long sigh*


I don't even know where to begin on my life as of late. So busy, so much drama, so much.... everything.

I guess I'll talk about christmas.

Christmas was good!

I got:

+A Laptop
+A Color Printer (which I'm figuring out how to get it on the wireless network XD)
+Escape Gift Card (Bubble tea :D YUM)
+Chocolates XD
+Polo Ralph Lauren Travel Bags
+PJs
+A Blackberry Pearl Phone

o.o hm... I think that's it O_o *thinks* I've probably forgotten some little things...

New Years Sucked. I was sick O_o Got sick Wednesday before New year, I was sick for about a week. I was weak, getting sick anytime I ate anything, I was in pain, I lost my voice. I don't know what hit me, but it sucked whatever it was... Weird thing is, I don't know anyone around me who got sick, who I got it from.... it just originated in me I guess XDDD

Happy!Project is still thriving. We finished 2nd generation auditions, but now one girl decided she didn't want to do the new sub-group and instead wanted to be in the Happy Paradise Team (our parapara subunit), soooo We had a spot still open for 2nd gen in the new subgroup... So we went back to the people who wanted to turn in an application but didn't make deadline and contacted a few of them to go ahead and send in the application. We have one girl we're almost postive that we want to accept.

It's hard because since we started, we've never turned anyone down... But this was the first audition where we were turning some people down for 2nd generation membership....

We have some awesome plans for this year though, and I'm really excited. Kristy and I are releasing our single "Sexy Snow" which is C/W "Waa~! Merry Pink XMAS" XD Our PV is nearly finished too! <3 I'm so excited. It was supposed to be released on new year, but then I got sick, and my parts weren't finished... so that held us back a week, and then my voice was still gone and I sounded like a boy going through puberty XD and that pushed us back even more... T___T I feel so bad though. I'm determined to get it done this week.

Anyway... that's about all for now O_o I'll try to keep this thing updated.

baibai

XDDD I'm on a sera myu drive right now lmfao... >_> I've been listening to myu music all day. WHY?!

XDD My new icon rocks. XDDDD IT OWNS!!! Edward... Jacob.... aaannnnd ME! XDDD HAHA

I'm such an idiot.

We perform this weekend. I'm excited and nervous. Heather is like freaking out- she wanted to drop out. If she does- Kristy and I will be on her ass like something else lmfao- just wait...

Anyway- my birthday is coming up soon!!! XD Dunno what I'm gonna do yet... I still have a month.

Augh and school is... okay managable I guess

Japanese
German
World Religions
Math

Japanese and German so far have been easy. German will be easy for the rest of the year, it's not up to par with the 4 years I've taken, but oh well right?

World Religions I get to expierence tomorrow.

Math... is cool. My teacher is a HIPPIE XDDD No joke lmfao. He's like if you want structure in your life, I'm not the teacher for you. I'm free, like a river xD I'm like lmfao. He's like an... anarcist or something he's like "down with government!" lmfao. it's actually really amusing. so I'll like that class I think.

Japanese is pretty much what I expected- tons of the "uh... I'm taking this class because I like anime *snort*" kind of people. Dorky dorky dorky. I'm DEF the cutest one in the class *POSE* XDDDDDD LMFAO I don't mean to sound big headed... but it's true T_T not like there's much competetion. *shrugs* I'm also the only one who knows all the hiragana and katakana already and it was SO GREAT. Like she was talking about how chinese & japanese kanji aren't always the same, and she put up "娘" Of course, I knew exactly what it is. The chinese girl in there said "whatever it is in chinese, and it meant mother" and she was like "does anyone know what this is in japanese?" and I'm like "musume XD it means daughter" LMFAO It was like... the first kanji I learned. No- Tsuki was, but whatever. I already recognize I think like 40 something kanji... all the kanji this semester I already know- so grammer and vocabulary is what I really need to study...

Anyway- That's pretty much it O__o I really need to get moving on that costume... since I'm doing half of heathers too XD I have a lot of work still left to do on mine. Good thing I already know the dance really well- this happy!Pro performance is going to be REALLY good! I can't wait!! ^_____^

I really gotta go to bed now though. Goodnight <3